Ricordare che sono...

Today has been a hard thing.
I have that feeling of wanting to be on the pier in California riding bikes with Blake. I get that feeling when I am in situations that I feel trapped in. I am a bit dramatic for sure, but I am a person who needs respect and confidence placed in her to perform my best. I get that from home, I get that from Heavenly Father, but I don't at work. I have the chance to make a lot of money in real estate, but if I feel nervous and uncomfortable it won't matter how much I intend to make. I am just amazed at the world and it's lack of integrity. I have always been aware of the bad that is in the world, but I don't like being associated with it. The place I work is slowly becoming a place that I am nervous to be in. Not because of myself but because of the actions of other individuals. I know who I am and what I believe and if my experience here is not conducive to that, I struggle. I think anybody would. I have nightmares about work a lot. I guess I am writing this today to see how I really feel about all of this. Most people just suck it up and deal with it, but I am not one of those people. I don't feel like sacrificing my happiness and my livelihood. So inside of wallowing, I decided to write what I am grateful for. I will decide later how to fix the problem, but for now...


i am grateful for my cute home
i am grateful for a wise and spiritual mother who always knows when i need her strength
i am grateful for my ability to learn
i am grateful for my discovery of art and how i perceive beauty
i am grateful for the birds that wake us up in the morning, nothing is more magical
i am grateful for my temple covenants and the knowledge of the plan
i am grateful for health
i am grateful for honey whole wheat crepes
i am grateful for my friends
i am grateful to own a chinchilla, he makes conversation for house guests
i am grateful for the sun, even if it is still cold
i am grateful for my testimony
i am grateful for goals and the ability to accomplish
i am grateful for a dad who is my number one fan
i am grateful for my marriage and family professor and his wisdom
i am grateful for a husband who is a disciple of Christ
i am grateful to have someone to sleep with
i am grateful that when i am bratty, blake just loves me and is selfless
even though i don't deserve it
i am grateful for photography
i am grateful for egg white french toast with cinnamon sugar pears
i am grateful that watching the olympics motivated me to run farther last night
i am grateful i got interview for a competitive internship for the church
i am grateful for fabulous in-laws
i am grateful for our incredible ward and the amazing friends we have made
i am grateful i don't waste money on buying us weekly magazine anymore
i am grateful to have no debt
i am grateful for my best friend
i am grateful that Heavenly Father has blessed me with blake...so grateful

i am a bird that just needs to fly higher.