two too big

for some reason having nikson around for only two years seems quite impossible. it seems like he has been in our lives forever, or moreso, we can't really remember life without him. (ok, ok i can remember how naps used to be longer and we didn't buy hot dogs, yikes). the other night while driving home, blake asked me if i thought nikson was so good because we are good parents (are we?) or if he was so great because that is just who we were sent. the question has been on my mind ever since and i as watch him do the funny things he does, the grown up things he does, and the cute things he does, i realize how little we have to do with this small human being. the little has changed us really. yesterday i backed into our driveway gate, snapping off our rear view mirror (for the flippin love), and blake and i got into a little fight (blake: i'm not mad just bugged. jac: why do you have to make me feel dumb when i already know how dumb that was.) the whole time we are bouncing snarky remarks at each other nikson is yelling, "mom. dad. no no." "blake shh." "mama nice." he is like a live-in marriage coach. he is pretty sensitive to contention and so our home is softening. sometimes blake and i will be wrestling and the tickle thing will sneak it's way in. i know if i yell "help" to Nikson he will start bawling and get mad a blake. thank you son of mine!

for being two i feel like he has gotten a lot accomplished. he asked to be potty trained and has passed that with flying colors (hallelujah). he can communicate pretty well, there is always one of us who understands what he is saying. he kisses mom's tummy religiously and is really excited for a brother (we shall see how that goes over). he remembers people's names and can connect stories to important people in his life. for example, my sister-in-law, brynlee and him saw a dead mouse in our bathroom (gag) and anytime we talk about bryn, nikson is sure to remind us, "mouse, dead. bryn, screaming."

every mother has a special spot in her heart for her children. i think about my mom and how she made each one of us feel like we were her favorite. no one every felt like they were unloved or unwanted. this kid has a way of making sure he has that kind of affection coming from everyone he knows. i am excited for him to be two. not super thrilled that his wise self is getting a little bit sassy with his mom, but needless to say, he's got a way.